Feels Real Good!

 

After a wonderful weekend up in Springfield, Massachusetts at the Organix Soul showcase (get there, if you haven't experienced it) -- I touched down in New York with my favorite fellas. My love runs deep and the talent is real!

(to the left = Bradd Marquis http://www.myspace.com/braddmarquis)
(to the right = V http://www.myspace.com/vsign)

PINCH ME!!!!

Your legacy

What will your legacy be when your time here on Earth has run out? Have you given any thought to what remnants of you people will hold onto? It's funny, this topic came to mind as I spoke with a few people I know in reference to someone we know who has passed on.

What was really crazy is that when we discussed this particular individual, we all had this instantaneous look come across our faces that distinctly said, "Yeah, oh well!" with little regard. I listened to their stories about this person before chiming in to share the eventful introduction I'd had. The impression left behind of this person was to the far corner of favorable. The bottom line is that we were all in agreement that none of us would be making any serious effort to attend the homegoing service for this individual.

Let me explain, my memory of this person involves me being referred to as 'one of those bitches!' I was so caught off guard that it took a minute for me to realize that the vile words spilling out of that person's mouth was a very weak attempt at humor and were directed at me. As I write this, I am trying to be careful so as not to indicate when the person passed, what the individual's sex was or where I might know the person from because people have a tendency to read between the lines and make ill-fated assumptions. I'm not here to throw dirt on someone who can no longer defend him or herself. I am merely here to enlighten you of the lasting impression you have the ability to implant in the mind of others.

Are you boisterous, obnoxious, brazen, one who people move away from instead of draw to? (Qualities of the departed)

My family and closest friends can co-sign as I share characteristics of my own personality, good and bad. I'm loveable yet moody, perhaps the scales of my inner Libra are sometimes off-kilter *shrugging* -- I am thoughtful and considerate yet withdrawn and often a loner. God is the head of my life, yet I often pray for patience because I bore of people and circumstances very easily when the interest is depleted. I can be brutally honest and overly sensitive! *shrugging yet again*

The most important thing I want everyone to know about me is that I love my son very much -- and I couldn't make it through this life without my music.

Blessings

So I'm marinating on some things...

Time for some of my randomness to come full circle and be placed on front street! Taking the focus from the norm of my music posts. Before I begin, I am a Baptist -- I love no one deeper than I love God. I'm not always as faithful a servant to God's word as I should be. The human in me falters on a daily basis. I don't throw stones at those whose beliefs are far to the left of my own. If you believe that there is a higher calling on our lives than is way more than we can control, we can be cool.

So I'm sailing on a high right now. My very intelligent son, who skipped a grade early in his elementary years recently completed high school and was acknowledged in church today. He received a scholarship and was crowned the 2009 King of the Second Baptist Church Scholarship Committee based on the funds that were raised in his honor. His counterpart, The Queen is also a 16-year old scholar! So, our future leaders have been set on a path to greatness and I can speak for me -- I expect no shortcomings from this one here!

On another note -- I was a bit agitated around 4:30 this morning. My neighbors, who really do not know the meaning of hospitality and courtesy for those living beneath them returned home from an apparent family outing. I had to hear them walk up the stairs, put the children to bed, flush the toilet a few times -- and then the ultimate atrocity -- the creaking and squeaking of the bed! I didn't have the energy to get out of bed for my iPod -- which I typically keep near me because their three small children rise routinely at 7:30 EVERY morning! So, at this point I'm wide awake and watching the clock (just wrong, right?! >) Ten minutes passed and there was silence. Okay, some quiet and I started to drift back into slumber and before you know it the bed post was hitting the wall. Enrique had gone IN!

Now, my mind is wandering. What were they doing in the context of the silent moments? Who was doing whom? (Oh Lord, was I 'not' in church -- seeking salvation a few short hours ago?!) Then I got annoyed -- but, honestly I was annoyed because Alex was getting hers and I wasn't! Look here! God knows my heart better than I'm sure I do. HE knows that I'm tired of being by my lonesome and that I long for companionship. I've already cracked the seal of living as I move into my fourth decade.

I thank my Pastor for praying for the single women in the congregation today -- those of us who don't want to repeat the cycles that our mothers, aunties, grandmothers endured. Hell, my mother's praying for both, me and my sister in that regard.

Just some things I was tripping over today.

Pray for me ya'll :)